It’s Time

Seattle!

Wow. I’m still having a hard time processing all the recent changes in my life. Don’t even get me started on all the minor things that have to change like address updates to all sorts of accounts–the nice surprise is when you get the call/email/text/notification that tells you something did not get renewed because they couldn’t process the transaction. Yet, at the same time certain things have fallen off the radar, like subscriptions I no longer pay attention to.

But, these are all necessary steps one has to take to adapt to change. Don’t let this all fool you though because I’m still trying to catch up to all this. For one, Demona (car) is out of commission until I can get her fixed. Apparently I hit a pothole that cracked part of the steering system. I’m now slowly leaking fluid, shouldn’t be driving her and the repair costs are beyond what I can afford right now. In a way, I feel like my wings have been clipped. I hate not being able to get to where I need to go. Thankfully the roommate and I work at the same place so we just carpool. I’m very grateful.

The streets are familiar, again I’ve been coming to the Seattle area for about five years now. And yet, it all feels foreign, well… different. It’s hard for me to describe what it is that I feel. I still don’t know where the post office is and no matter how many times I pass a particular shop, it still feels new each time. Things are slow-paced. No one is in a real rush here, at least not by comparison to SoCal life. For one, everyone obeys the speed limit and it’s at a brisk-walking-pace of 60mph!! Did I mention they OBEY THIS?! It’s bizarre! SoCal was 65mph but it was only suggested as most drive 75-80mph! But anyway… it’s a change. I doubt I’ll be doing much driving. Work is down the street, about three miles away.

The weather is nothing short of beautiful. Yes, I have in fact experienced winters here and I love them too! Sadly for a SoCal boy I was never one for the hot sun that California is known for. I’m sure I’ll miss it so I won’t dismiss the possibility. For now this boy begs for change! And I can’t wait until I have Demona back up and running so I can go exploring!

As I said in the earlier post, I can’t wait to make a lot of life changes. Seattle feels like home. I’m still getting to know people around work, despite my shy demeanor. I tend to keep to myself a lot and I’m sure most people think I’m weird, but is this really anything new to you all? 🙂

People are nice here. I have yet to find my routine or my niche of friends. Yes, I did have friends prior to moving here but they’re all scattered, and don’t necessarily go under the same roof. (They don’t all get along) Besides, I’ve yet to meet a gay friend here. So, a part of me feels empty, there’s a certain bond missing.

Routine I think is something I took for granted. The mere act of waking up in an unfamiliar place is odd. Where is my towel? My tooth brush? Where did I leave my deodorant? Getting home from work is different every day. There’s no routine there yet. I hate to admit that I haven’t gone back to writing on a regular basis, or editing! Again, I never realized just how much I’d miss my routine. It’s all a matter of time. I just have to make a conscious decision to get certain things done. My biggest fear is that this ‘rut’ I’m in, this floundering experience, turns into my routine 🙁

I’m much happier here. Unlike ever before, and this is just the first step. I can’t wait to see how things will be like in six months. Don’t worry, I’ll still be the same Branli 🙂

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